Another Day

            I am sitting here pondering on things in the past that have happen and think about the things that are happening now are similar but in a different way. For instance when you lose a baby you think it is the end of the world and you can’t go on and make it. Let me say I felt that way when I lost my son Anthony from Potter’s Syndrome (having no kidneys) when he was twenty-two minutes old. I sit here and realize I got through the hard part even though I didn’t know how. Yes, I miss him but know that it is a day to day process of healing. At the time I knew God but wasn’t walking with him in my life, but I know that God is the one who got me through because he knew I would come back to him in time. Now I am facing a similar situation, but it’s not losing a child it is losing a job and having to face where is the money coming from. We are living on my husband’s pay but I know that God is the one providing for us; and I am thankful for that.

                I am keeping myself busy by looking for work and reading books which I haven’t really sat down and read this many books in a long time. I have read three books in the past week and now reading another. A couple of the books are about the Daughters of Lancaster County which are Amish families relying on God, very good books. I am also reading grief books which help in so many ways. Some tell you what to say and do and what not to say and do when people are facing grief from losing a love one. I am reading one now called The Grief Club written by Melody Beattie so far it is very good. This book is about healing through life’s losses (whatever that loss may be i.e. Death, divorce, drug addiction, etc.). I am reading these books to help me support others through their grief; God has touched my heart and is using me to touch others and let His light shine through me. I am a volunteer for The Compassionate Friends which is a group for supporting a family after a child dies. This group is for parents, grandparents, and siblings. Since I have a lost a child I know what these people are going through even though each situation is different. One of my jobs is Newsletter Editor, which I put together the Newsletter for our group. I give God the glory for guiding me to Susan my friend who is the Leader of The Compassionate Friends Chapter in our area. 

                Well, on to another day tomorrow. May the Lord Jesus be with you and your family, and may His peace be surrounding you.